26 th of october.. wut so special abt this date???

hmm... come to think of it.. wut is so special abt 26.10.08??
ramai giler my fwens yg kawin on this date.. then da next question popped out.. when izzit goin to be me??? warghhhh... :((

bowink...

i have to submit 4 ASSignments before this weekend and another one next week.. so wut am i doin hiah? Lyla!!! get back to work!!!! grrrrrrrrrr

Hujan Lagi?

just yesterday i received a call from mama saying dat my fav uncle passed away.. he is abah's younger brother.. they're very close.. in fact acik ( my uncle ) stayed with abah n mama until he got married.. n acik rapat with our family.. everytime abah sakit or masuk hospital mesti dia dtg jenguk..

yang terkilan sangat tu dia sakit kali ni kitorg tak tau pun.. in fact he passed away on saturday, our relatives did tried to contact us.. tapi masa diorg call tu we were out pergi kubur arwah abah.. baru yesterday mama tau.. tak sempat kitorg jumpa dia pun.. :(

belum setahun abah pergi... acik pun dah pergi.. masa abah passed away.. he did talked to me.. sabarkan.. n i was thinking he wud be my choice to be my wali.. as he remind me of abah a lot.. tapi tak sempat juga.. :((

to abah n acik.. cuma yassin dan doa dari adik yang tak putus2 untuk 2 insan yang sangat adik sayangi.. semoga tenang dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang yang beriman.. amin..

Dear God..

Dear God,
Pls gimme strength to face all ths.. Tunjukkan jalan yang terbaik for everyone's sake.. If only I have abah to talk to..

Travis
Why Does It Always Rain On Me?

I can't sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything's alright
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling when you belong.
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
I can't stand myself
I'm being held up by invisible men
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong.
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold
I can't sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything's alright
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling when you belong.
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold
Why does it always rain on me

I hate bein single!!

Few years back ( in fact few months ago ) i wud say i'm happy being single.. free.. party life.. friends.. hot guys.. :P all good things will be flowing.. but for da last few weeks.. I hate being single.. I felt miserable.. lonely.. I need sumone!! huhuhuhuhuhuh... i guess wut a friend told me was right when i told him dat i dun like to stay home alone anymore..

"that is da sign dat u're sick of being single"

so shud i just marry anyone? hell no!!.. altho.. i do have sum options.. *wink*

but still.. y "he" is da one dat i cudnt stop thinking of???

huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

-miserably me-

Day 4 of Raya

Hmm.. sedar tak sedar dah raya yang keempat.. cepatnyer masa berlalu..
To dearie fwens yang hantar smss for raya, terima kasih byk2 atas ingatan korang.. but honestly, I dun even feel da mood untuk celebrate raya this year..

Most of my fwens tau yang this year I wont be back to my hometown in ipoh for raya, but on the sunday, a few days before raya, I called mama asking her whether she wud be ok of celebrating raya alone, since my sister is in Aussie n my brother will be back to his wife's hometown @Malacca. Baru la that evening i kelam kabut get a ticket back to KL.. thanx to Dr Yasmin yang temankan gi airport n purchased a RM672 to n fro KL-KK ticket.

This wud be the first year I celebr8 raya without abah.. It was hard..Every nite of raya abah akan takbir raya di rumah.. n this year.. sunyi.. I cried.. but I dun wanna show it in front of Mama.. so I just kept it inside and put up a fake smile.. I'm trying so hard to be happy.. thanx to friends like Wan, Lola, Dira, Hilal and Dee, even Zura.. At least they cheer up my raya.. n especially thanx to Dennis dear.. u accompanied me almost da whole time i dun even have time to be sad.. so yeah.. thanx to u.. to dear Gabe as well.. altho most of da time i wud be pening melayan mamat belgium nie ( i cud hardly understand wut he said :P ) but i know his intention was good.. n he is indeed a great friend..

I just got back from kubur abah.. I felt a bit relieve after a while talking to myself pretending I'm taking to him.. I told him a lot of things.. like I used to.. I know it's crazy, but I hope he can hear me.. owh well.. all I can do is to recite do'a for him.. n sedekahkan dia dengan Yassin.. semoga dia ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman.. Ameen..

Silly Me :P

kan korang bleh just tgk my old blog, kan??? hahahha... :P silly me...
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