Aneurysm...

well.. it's been a while since i last wrote anything here.. pretty much busy with my assignments, thesis.. and not to mention my wedding preparation.. n just this afternoon my mum asked me bertunang plak... ishk...
2 days ago.. my ear bleeds.. i tot it was nothing.. so i went to class as usual.. altho am having a terrible headache.. then yesterday i realize it still bleed.. so i went to a clinic.. da doctor suspected an ear polyp burst and explain why i bleed thru my ear.. this morning i woke up my nose plak bleeds!! i'm like.. wut??!! so i drive myself to da nearest hospital and went to see da doctor.. had a CAT scan and da doctor told me it was aneurysm.. dilation on my artery wall.. and it burst on its own.. but da doctor was kinda surprised dat i can still drive to da hospital.. most cases people dah passed out dah.. ntah.. i myself puzzled..
oh well.. i guess i better chill myself a bit.. am goin to watch a movie tonite.. hopefully i'll be ok soon.. i just need my baby.. :(( i miss him very much...

Pawang?? Puaka??

i went to a theatre yesterday..can't remember wut exactly the title tho ( mainly bcuz it leaves no impact to me ) it was sumthing on pawang.. bomoh.. sumthing like dat ler..
it started with one bomoh reciting sum sort of mentera in a dark.. a bit scary ler.. but it was spoilt when ths 2 idiots came crawling.. i was abt to scream cuz i tot it was sum sort of polong/puaka or wutever malays call it.. ( i can't differentiate those ghosts.. :P )
for me this theatre banyak dragging.. and the actors/actresses just love to jerit2.. i mean.. faham la kalau diorg nak bercakap dengan penuh perasaan ke apa, but realistik la sikit.. takkan tetiba2 je nak cakap terjerit2? i think i acted better in a play during my PRIMARY school days.. yes, primary..oh well.. besides PGL, (maybe i tak tgk any other malay theatre ) perhaps i cud make a conclusion dat malay theatre is waaaaaayyyy bad.. need to improve in so many ways.. i mean.. fine,i'm not an artist nor i study ths art.. am not sumone in this line pun.. tapi i blv those people yg tgk pun boleh judge.. i'm dissapointed, really.. everytime i gave a chance utk malay movie/ theatre, they always disappoint me.. abis camne i tak gv ths kinda critics??!! bukan semua la.. tapi i cud say 90% mmg tak up to my expectation.. is my expectation to high? i dunno.. maybe.. tapi izzit too much to ask for sumthing yang more fresh.. or AT LEAST more realistic? sumthing unpredictable.. rather than 90-100 episodes kat tv yang u dah bleh agak jalan cerita dia.. aiyya.. biler nak ubah la trend storyline kat malaysia nie..
anyway.. perhaps those movie makers or pengarah teater tu akan kata i nie sumone who dun have the position to judge and giving this kinda commentary, but then again.. klu bukan target u guys untuk memberi impact pada penonton, then might as well u make another SS ( syok sendiri ) movie/teater.. buat menyakitkan hati je org bayar tiket wayang/teater then keluar dengan perasaan "huhuhu..hampehnyer buang masa kat dalam tu" unless those couples yang nak buat wayang sama dalam tu,kan?? so, until i really found a good malay movie/theatre besides PGL, i wud still mengutuk.. :P which if they do understand maksud tersirat disebaliknye, which is make a different, sebenarnya ade lagi org macam i yang mengharap perubahan dalam industri ni dekat tanahair kite nie.. kenapa filem p ramlee sampai sekarang kita tak jemu2 tgk wlu smpai dah hafal skrip dia? sendiri mau ingat la...

nothing but chilling..

am supposed to concentrate on my thesis but still dun have the urge yet.. erghh.. still lepaking n dun even feel like writing anything.. dah la so many things in my mind lately.. oh well.. i'll do it sum other day.. hehe
anyway.. result shud be out very soon now.. hopefully ok la.. dah la paper sharani nak mampus susah nak score.. ntah la ape nak jadi ngan my result this sem..
i wanted to find info on dr ismail thamby pun still tak dapat2 lagi.. if anyone tau his add or how to contact him, please lemme noe, eh???

my complicated life....

it has been a while since i posted a blog here.. memang couple of weeks nie agak bz and minggu2 yang meletihkan jiwa, perasaan, minda..

first, those unwanted people dat just bug in my life.. but i came to a conclusion (and thanx to hilal ) that people wud prefer to put blame on others rather cari kesalahan sendiri.. dat it is easier untuk menyalahkan orang lain dari menilai diri sendiri.. but bcuz of hilal gak, i learnt dat at times we have to learn to be nice to people despite da fact dat da person be cruel to us.. Allah tu Maha Adil.. lagi pun dapat la pahala free2 je.. klu melawan kang sakit hati dapat, dosa pun dapat... so like i use to tell myself, dun wrestle with pigs.. u will get all da dirt, they, however will get all da fun..

second, tekanan royal kali ni.. dah la this wud be my final year.. final chance untuk debate.. so of course la tekanan paling tinggi.. tapi shud be ok kut.. n thanx to people in debate dat have cheered my life this past few days.. takla tension sgt..

3rd.. yesterday.. 25.11 genap setahun abah tinggalkan kami.. rindu yang teramat sgt.. cuma doa yang boleh dikirimkan.. he is very much alive to me, still.. he always stay in my mind.. untuk abah.. semoga ditempatkan dikalangan orang yang beriman.. amin..

my name...

What Lailatulqamar Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic “Type A” personality. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are. You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth. You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

26 th of october.. wut so special abt this date???

hmm... come to think of it.. wut is so special abt 26.10.08??
ramai giler my fwens yg kawin on this date.. then da next question popped out.. when izzit goin to be me??? warghhhh... :((

bowink...

i have to submit 4 ASSignments before this weekend and another one next week.. so wut am i doin hiah? Lyla!!! get back to work!!!! grrrrrrrrrr