old blog : Merdeka Day Out

For one whole day today, i was out.. Pagi2 lagi dah kuar jadi hakim untuk final pidato kemerdekaan peringkat UMS dan sekolah-sekolah.. yang memalukan, semua pemidato2 sekolah are waaaaaaayyyy better than pemidato2 uni.. buat malu jer.. 3 orang yang jadi hakim this morning, Abg Fahmy as ketua hakim, Fa and Me tiga2 tepuk dahi tgk kualiti pemidato2 UMS.. adui.. mmg la UMS ni dah ketandusan pendebat2 n pemidato yang baik.. or mmg ada but then bakal tak tercungkil, we never know.. kan? anyway.. dalam keempat2 finalis pemidato sekolah hari ni, ade sorang yang i can really see his potential.. darn good.. terus abg fahmy offer nak bagi recommendation klu dia nak masuk UMS.. n i do hope he'll consider la..at least ade gak UMS pnya harapan utk masa depan..huhuuhuabis pidato, me n few fwens went to 1borneo.. i bought 2 new shirts.. then went and watched ghost house.. ntahapa2 ntah movie siam nie.. konon2 citer hantu.. tapi ntahapa2 ntah.. struktur hancur.. konsep lari.. penghujahan pun tak dapat kaitkan dengan konsep.. uhh.. sudah.. my mind dah terlalu byk unsur debat smpai movie pun nak dibidas.. :P so malam nie stay je la kat rumah.. quite honestly, i dun even feel kemeriahan of merdeka day.. malam tadi pun i slept at 8.. sedih? maybe.. every year my late abah will call me to remind me not to go n celebrate merdeka kat luar.. i remmber da first year i'm in sabah.. maxis line ade prob until abah cudnt call me.. he tot dat i went out n sumthin happen.. da whole nite he cudnt sleep.. he even called everyone to da extend callin pak guard UMS to look for me!! abah.. abah.. i know he loves me dearly.. tapi i swear to God I was in my room stuck with my assignments.. so.. yesterday nite, despite no one called me to remind me not to go out, i stayed in my house.. tido, to be exact.. n coincidently i dreamt of abah.. of hugging him tight.. gosh i miss him.. just to see his smile n da warmth of his love... i cudnt 4gt da times he always hug n kiss me.. *sigh* but i know he's in a good place now.. watching over me.. n he will always be alive in my heart.. only Yassin and doa dat i cud give him everyday.. n a prayer so dat Allah will take a good care of him, n place him di kalangan orang2 yang beriman.. Ameen.. anyway.. maghrib tadi dah masuk bulan ramadhan.. cepatnya masa berlalu.. n moga2 ramadhan nie membawa kita semua seribu rahmat.. to everyone.. saya mohon ampun dan maaf sekiranya saya pernah membuat salah dan silap.. semoga kita melangkah ke bulan ramadhan ini dengan keinsafan supaya kita boleh mengerjakan ibadah puasa dengan sempurna.. ameen..